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tonight when i sing a tune or two for you
when you clapped the ends of nights
i hurdled for my room
it never felt right, until it did
when i read you the real words, then it did...
when you would come home so late
as a child never quite knew what that meant
I WROTE A SONG FOR YOU
AND I GUESS IT WONT COME TRUE
WHEN WORDS ARE SPOKEN LOUD
YOU HURDLE TOWARDS MY ROOM
BUT IT FELT RIGHT
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a shift
02:45
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hello there, i am a different girl
i can't scream or cry correctly
my face is a lie my mouth wont move
so goodbye
i'm sorry
a shift
hello there i once was an idiot
stars on broadway my disgust now
blooms in me know i've accepted
i've accepted
a shift
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the hydra
04:16
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head is falling off the hydra
from a particularly bad winter
and when the sun came to shining
the same time the world was ending
rose golden shield defend me
from a dead past of bodies
piled in line from fake to closest
to the real self unfold its
OUT OF LINE/COME TO
stories of the old and chosen
gave her hope to sail for mainland
but quickly storms came to rising
power through tired and maybe
a broken paddle with no safety
seemed that she would swallow safely
i cant believe the winter harshness
i cant believe the winter harshness
THIS WINTER WILL KILL ME
IF I CANT HOPE
NO LIFE TO GIVE
NO ABILITY TO
WORK ON ANYTHING
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saw you in the kitchen
04:42
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saw you in the kitchen, you looked so happy
overwhelm the dishes, i wanted to but i couldn't speak
it's coming sooner than you think
all the different things you say that matter sound like nothing
you're missing all the context staring at you but won't speak
she's speaking to you and me
in time
what do you think i mean?
i want to know
i need to know
what you think
i'll make you so fucking proud of me
oh it's only different, clothing and the way she speaks
oh it's only dishes, makeup and insecurities
oh it's only different, hairstyles and tone of speech
oh it's only dishes, i wanted to but i couldn't speak
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the doubt
05:43
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so uncomfy
how they look at me
"i don't know you"
yes you do i'm me
there's no difference between
lines that never meet
but when you look at me
the doubt begins to speak
are you sure?
while i wait for tea
you simply message me
leaving behind dead bodies
graveyards so you think
and i feel cut in two
but i'm healing steady
but when you look at me
the doubt begins to sink
are you sure?
(are you sure that you're ready? are you sure that you're happy? are you sure you're not angry? are you sure you don't hate me?)
(ARE YOU SURE?! ARE YOU FUCKING SURE?!)
are you sure?
fuck.
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until i begin breathing.
02:52
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i can't explain
my broken eyes
i waste away
and then i die
stolen kiss
sleepless nights
my body quits
and then i'll die
oh what a night
i cried myself to sleep
i cried until felt
i cried until i breathed
i will never be loved for being me
oh my god does it reside (or reply)
and can it speak? oh goddamn it might
oh my god it sticks inside
a girl, no surprise...
i will never be loved for being me
i am just a freak in your eyes
oh my god does it reside
or reply
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i'm not dead just wish that i had
been alive, early access
alpha build you will be stronger than before
alpha build, stronger than before
it's all in your head
leaving to the stratosphere
and i hope you will be soothing on your back
embark on you feel
you whisper to the sun, rope down
hiding sugar in your flesh
WASH DOWN THE RAIN
FOCUS ON YOU
I'M NOT ALIVE
TOO SOON
woe is me, you laugh in time
the sweetest things are on my mind
candles burn and cigarettes
pillow as you cry
i would call you... home
sleeping outside
and walls are thinning down the stairs
you pretend all you were in a lie again
it's all that you can see
embark your sweet relief
and all you scream
WASH DOWN
SOUVEINIERS
AND YOU'RE OUTSIDE
HOPING SOMEONE WILL FIND YOU
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i will not
put a bullet
straight down through the chrome
i stole out
hoping for wishful thinkers
close to your head lacing fear
but i'm outside
and falling faster
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so i won't
you were awful, i'm just whispers
you fall alone
i would falter, you shoot markers
from my face to yours
now i will rise
if i'm coming home. i'm gonna die
if i'm coming home, i'm gonna die
well i'm coming home, and i will not die
but i'm coming home, do i need to lie?
you were awful, i'm just whispers
you fall alone
so i won't
(it's 2:15 PM november 19th 2021as i'm recording this. i probably should have finished this album a long time ago and at this point i'm not reall sure what shape it makes anymore. it lost it's form to me a long time ago. i wonder if these scattered fragments across two years really makes any sense together anymore. it all feels too heavy. maybe i should just cut this song off the album, maybe i should just scrap the album. maybe i should let it die and just work on something new. i don't know. that doesn't seem quite right either. maybe the mess will be fine.)
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ties & knots
03:35
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i'm a faggot, hold me
what is day?
what is night?
all i seek
inside me
(in sodomy)
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happiness in June
04:29
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(in youth people passed and went/a camera from unspoken eyes/angling and hiding/from herself and other machines)
(in time lapsed memories/and broken runway scans/figures emerged/from phoenix ashes she cried)
"all my wrist can do is walk alone with with you
to a strange hole i am nothing torn in two
tumor is more i shuffle out of view
don't surprise me none
a happiness in June"
so i won't
(in solace and love/stones tossed in lakes/in rejection of hate/she falls in June and screams)
"all my gods in view are falling with me too
part of rain now i clamp the noisy runes
stick inside love or risk becoming used
don't surprise me none
a happiness in June"
so i won't
(there's happiness eventually/it doesn't always last/but it's [REDACTED]/and tomorrow it will be another day and time/the days keep on and on/and so do we/it's all life can be/each day stronger than before/new lives/and new variations on yourself/through all remember/it's only you...)
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it's only you…
05:05
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i've been running quickly caught another glimpse of you
started feeling happy but then i couldn't follow through
but that's not really true it only feels like it some of the time
all i know now is that i feel like me at least, some of the time
it's only you
started taking care of all the things i let slip through
projected all my madness turning right through and through
but now i run safely ironic how that works true
when i'm in the streets staring eyes won't let me lose
it's only you
now i can't believe you
all my eyes see through
layer insecurity
and all my thoughts turn blue
got a long way
but i'm getting there happy
drag your through the mud
but don't beat yourself blue
girl it's only you
IT'S ONLY YOU
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